So, my dear wheelchair died last Thursday. My only mode of mobility, my "legs" if you will, is out of commission until the new part comes in. It was supposed to come in today (Tuesday) however, it did not. Cool.
Without my chair, I am pretty much stuck in my bed. It's been 6 days. I've been outside once. Eeep.
It's been an adventure so far...
Lots of thinking.
Lots of music-listening.
Lots of reading.
Lots of thinking.
Knowing, when my chair croaked, that I would be spending a heavy dose of quality time with the four walls of my bedroom, I was not too stoked.
I am not a fan of solitary confinement. I am also not a fan of being vulnerable and reaching out for support.
But the Lord is stretching me.
There's been much time for reflection. And one thing I am sure of is that God is completely in this crazy rodeo. It has been a bundle of emotions, positive and negative, but he has blessed this time and used it to grow my heart.
It's been a weird week and I cannot wait until Thursday, but I am truly thankful for this time.
Because I was stuck in bed and lonely, I had the courage and desperation to tell people that I needed them. And the Lord showed me great love in the sweet friends he surrounded me with. In this situation, I have had no choice but to be open, to be vulnerable and reject the fear of appearing weak. It is what it is. The love does not cease because my body is powerless.
This situation, at first seeming overwhelmingly limiting, opened doors for unique opportunities. I have experienced the Lord in new and rejuvenating ways. I was able to spend some good quality time with some dear and wonderful humans. I was able to begin reading a book I've been meaning to pick up for quite some time. I got lots of my spanish homework done, which is a great thing.
I even made some new friends. From the comfort of my own bed. That's a first.
The talented Adam Sams stopped by for a little late-night jam sesh. This is one talented dude. Check him out if you enjoy great tunes.
Spontaneity. Quality music. Worship. This would have to be one of my favorite moments in the last few days.
So much love. I hope you see in you what we all see in you.
ReplyDeleteThank you for taking time to write your blog. I stumbled across it this morning and have been so very encouraged by your faith. I praise the Lord for all He is doing and will continue to do in your beautiful life! Thank you for walking by faith through the trials and joys of life and letting Him be your true life source. Praying for you sweet sister in Christ! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for embracing Jesus in your frailty. Two of my children (20 and 16) suffer from a rare disease that has confined them to wheelchairs. They love the Lord. Their hope in the resurrection to come gives me hope. May the God of all comfort continue to give you hope.
ReplyDeleteBrian, cru at Ohio U